It has been almost halfway through Summer Vacation. For me, I have started writing a fictional story (that I will probably throw away after), I have started those “Complete Canadian Curriculum” workbooks. The grade 8 one. I can do most of it. Well, whatever I have gotten to.
I have been spending most of my days with my younger brother. Sometimes I wonder if I am even being a “good” sister. I probably am doing some things wrong. Maybe because I’m stupid. Maybe it’s because I’m Gloria. I have done some really weird thinking. Lots of weird thoughts that progress strangely. Maybe I should think more about my actions. Will that make me smarter? Probably not. But, some more thinking might be required for me to come to a solution.
How come I keep having negative thoughts? Well, not really negative, I guess. But, it seems to me that, most of the time, I can’t seem to make up my mind about anything. I keep waiting for things to change on their own. Especially when it comes to myself. I feel that I don’t even know what it takes to be myself. Not what it takes, but what it is. See? I don’t even know what I am talking about. Well, I should really do some thinking so that people don’t just call me stupid, or ‘dumbass’. Until I figure myself out! See ya.
I got a haircut today. Now, my head is lighter! Also, my hair is thinned and layered. It’s weird. Especially when I tie my hair up in a ponytail. All the curly part of my hair is gone too. I’m back to straight hair. It’s also ticklish at my back. My hair is pretty thick. Yup.
Summer right now, doesn’t really feel like it. I wore long jeans again today. Maybe it’s just me. I don’t know. It’s getting late. Approaching 11:40 pm. Well then, until I have something better to do. See ya!
Summer Vacation has started. I am told to find some work to occupy myself with, and I can think of nothing. It definitely does not feel very much like Summer Vacation. It feels like summer, but I don’t feel the relaxing wave of relief of ‘no deadlines’. I feel like I haven’t done much for grade seven, so how is it over now? Even the process of the leaving ceremony seemed like it was for everyone except for me. Everyone else in my grade at my school seemed like they either they couldn’t leave or would like to leave as soon as possible. I don’t think that I fit in either of those sides. Do I not have feelings? It’s not great to leave, I guess, but I’m not exactly sad to be going to high school. I dunno. I think I’m trying to be neutral. Ahaha. Well, I should do something. Until I figure out what to do. See ya!