who gives a damn.

Heeyyy. I just read my friend’s speech for the grade 7 speech contest subject. And now, I have no self esteem. WHY?? Because all of my friends are able to do things and are widely liked (not like I would want to be liked by such people), and they get the opportunity to do cool things they ACTUALLY want to do. In my case, I don’t have much of a good reputation. My friends (?) actually like me because I can stand up to people whom are being stupid and annoying. A lot people like me for the things I do that sometimes get me into trouble. Like, what’s so good about standing up to someone and then getting into trouble for what measures I take to make sure I get them back fully in the face?
I don’t get to show my true potential of doing things because no one seems to believe I can. So my friends are the daughter of someone you know. So you give her chance at something with HER CLOSEST FRIEND. Cool beans! So I’m just this Chinese girl that beats boys (and girls and children of ALL AGES) up FOR NO APPARENT REASON. Nope. Actually I do have some problem with stupid people. I will not tolerate. Unless they’re cute (jkjk). I do have reasons for what I do. When I’m mad at someone I WILL get them back. If you know me, I WILL. For sure.
Because I beat SOME people up for a very GOOD and passable reason, AND I’m a girl, I don’t get to do the COOL stuff my popular friends do. Now, why did I put the word POPULAR in there? Because they are, and I’m not quite jealous. ‘If they’re popular, LET’S GIVE THEM SOME REALLY NICE OPPORTUNITIES AT DOING REALLY COOL ARTSY THINGS AND MATH COMPETITIONS AND WRITING COMPETITIONS!’ –uhh, NO.

So all the things I do that make me Gloria, make me a person to avoid. To avoid talking to, to avoid giving chances to. Unless you are a person that gives EVERYONE chances (in that case, you’re a great person). I’m tired. Tired of what? Ranting about things. Things that are irrelevant to you. So why bother? But then again, I’m not really asking for attention. It’s just the things I do for people sometimes. I regret beating people up for other people who can’t.

I

GIVE

UP!!!!!

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